2008, its gonna be great
Orapiu Jetty, Waiheke Island : Photo by Evan
New Zealand is 144 minutes into the final day of 2007. There’s something about seeing out an old year and beginning a new that has a tendency to find one reflecting. I dont know how Im feeling about it. Ive been working hard to tie up loose ends so 2008 could kick off with nothing in the road but Im not quite there and its irking me.
I am looking forward to it. I always look forward to a new year. The same as the birth of a new day. Every morning I wake up anticipating, and excited about, what ill have achieved by the end of it. New things I may learn or friends I may make. Ive always loved it. A new year is exactly the same only bigger, potentially scary depending on what you have riding on it, and alot more to think about. Particularly when you dont feel like you have much to show for yourself from the previous.
Since 18yo Ive lived a life that saw me in a position at the end of every year about as far removed from where I expected to be as it could be…until 2 years ago. Ive just gone through my second Christmas in a very similar situation to the one I was in last. If another year rolls around like that ill officially be confessing “in a rut"….which I dont aspire to. So, 2008 needs to bring me back into ‘unpredictable’. I need change. I need things to happen. Ive spent the past 2 years setting foundations and its time to make them work for me. Im putting pressure on myself this new year and intimidating myself in the process but thats fine. I know what I need to do…I hope I will. My world as I want it awaits me!
Can I put it off till the week after next?
Sally on Dec 31, 2007 | In Adventures, Thinking | 7 feedbacks »
I am always putting things off and I never get them done.
I have someone putting the pistol on my chest. Doesn't work when that someone is me, myself and I.
Sigh.
I will go for another spin on the ferrywheel.
Right now, we don't know - once again - what will be and where we will be.
But that's alright. It keeps it interesting. As long as the dogs are good to go and the papers are alright, I'm fine :)
For myself, well, my New Year started with the Full moon in October, so, I'm ahead of the game ;)
Sally Ack. I know I know. Take the bull by horns Sally! I was rearing to go last week...this week Im faltering. I have a terrible habit of doing exactly what I want at the expense of what I should be doing (with every good excuse under the sun well programmed).
Its a great life but wont get me my 40 acres out of town.
As I get older I've started to think that they are often one and the same thing. Guilt and impatience, too often, can cloud that.
Avoiding doing what you think you should be doing is sometimes just another way of saying to yourself that it may not be the right thing to do do OR the right TIME to do it.
Itd be nice to make the excuse that it isnt right or time isnt right but...we all know, on a daily basis, what our priorities should be for the day. Maybe something we've promised someone or the jobs which need doing before we can 'play'. I play first and because there's neverending 'play' things to do the jobs dont get done :).
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