I just found a (well buried) word doc on my computer. Is a short diary I kept while I was living on Mangawhai between September 2004 until April 2005 when I moved to Auckland. I had completely forgotten about it. Check this out!

Friday, October 29 (2004)

I just finished reading a great book about a lady who was a prostitute in nz for many years, just telling it how it was. Prostitution interests me, always has, ive gone so far as considering it for a career at times. Have never really thought id be sexy enough (or brazen enough) to make a great success of it though, and then the ‘society’ dilemmas would always be an issue. The book certainly gives it added appeal, Id love all of the lessons it could teach me…I read up on my numerology last week and it said part of my life’s quest is to experience many different sorts of relationships, that’s me to a tee.

…which I’d like feedback on before I make the announcement .

This will be long winded so please bare with me. I have a change in services coming, intended launch mid-next month, and I want reactions. My specific questions to you are at the bottom. Please don’t respond if you don’t read all of this…you will miss important bits!

I didn’t want to make any public mention of my coming changes before launch but, the more I’ve thought about it the more I suspect I’m going to find it hard to explain. I feel I need to know how it is (honestly) received by the reader before I get there.

One vital point before I continue. I’ve been in this business over 4 years now. Ever since the early days I’ve looked forward to the time when I could do my work exactly as I choose. This would happen when a) I no longer relied on / cared about the income, b) the base I had established was reasonably solid and c) I had the confidence to say it out loud.

I’m there!! And its f***ing exciting!

Read more

Yes, yes we are! World first right here in New Zealand. I was going to wait until we had some bods up there before making this official announcement but I’m too excited about it (and notoriously impatient). The boys are working on their profiles as we speak! This is no small deal, some explanation from the website:

Among our discussions on Escorts Forum we’ve often debated how our Punters would feel were roles reversed. What would they charge? How would they advertise? Could they do it full-stop? All of the men (and woman?) offering you their services on this website are well known members of our Escorts Forum community and are putting themselves on the line in the name of “living a little"! We applaud them! Their date with you could well be their FIRST (and no more than their fifth). They will make every effort to give you a GREAT time!

Willis, the pink dude with the brows, is our hot mascot and we think he’s wonderful. If anyone actually does this I will be immensly impressed. It is going to take balls (), particularly given that some who are considering it were also the guys who said they couldn’t in one of our previous threads. This is open to men and woman of any orientation, though given the complete lack of female punters involved in EF I’m expecting a male dominated gallery . Where are you ladies?! We’re going to have a ball .

9:04 PM. Lights are out (though i’ll ask you to forgive me my Christmas Tree). I admit to not even knowing about it until 8:34 after seeing a note on Trademe and realising it was happening NOW. Was 8:38 when switches were flicked because it takes 4 minutes to weigh up pros and cons, realise cons outweigh pros…until you factor in the GUILT and PATHETICNESS you’re going to be left with if you dont. I was saved the torment when my brother walked in. I (trying not to look guilty that the lights were still on!) told him about it. Without a nano-second of indescision, not even a blink, he had them all off in a moment.

I love decisive men! I’m feeling far better…despite a brief FREAK OUT when our neighbours dog started going silly, my little dog started growling at something in the night and I realised all our doors were wide open. 9:24 - 14 minutes to go.

Another anniversary rolls around…12 months already since my last Website Anniversary Post and three years since it all began. 3 years?!#?! Ive been reminiscing, going through my Web design archives, and 3 years is no surprise in fact . I have as many sites in my archives as I do online! Its a thrill, though I cringe at the thought of time invested (and nights on the town forfeited in the process).

Reality is I’ve now got a skill. Not one that I set out to achieve as part of any great plan…it has just evolved. If I’d studied it would have cost me the same plus a student loan!

Speaking of time…to the left is a timeline of some degree. Some memories from my archives folder, some horrors, some triumphs! I could add another half dozen but I’d rather not put myself through it. Ironically, with this anniversary Ive launched my new EiB Control Central, administration area for those who get a Website from me. Time has come to take it all more seriously….and I’m happy to.

I’m also giving thought to how much has changed; my head, my attitudes, my focus. If I had to describe this industry in one word…roller coaster. Well yes, two words. It is perpetual. I haven’t decided yet whether this is good or bad but, I’m still here. Three years down and the idea of moving to other pastures is still inconceivable.

Occasionally I do dream of a white picket fence. I dream of a camel trek across the middle of Australia. I get frustrated that life is so short! That my goals within this industry are so big…and how can I possibly do this and all else on my list in the same lifetime? The length of the Nile on a raft. Walk the Appalachian trail. Save Moon Bears in China and become a world famous erotic photographer. Street girls in Thailand are also on my “one day” list along with a Chateau in France and kayaking the full coast of New Zealand.

I don’t know what’s worse? Having too much to do or not enough. Too much means Im destined to look back on life and not feel finished. That could be by greatest horror.

So, here’s my plan:

31-40 years old - Sex Industry / Webdesign / Photography

40-45 years old - Thailand Sex Industry / Photography

45-46 years old - Appalachian Trail

46-49 years old - Study Architecture

49-50 years old - Nile Raft or Camels in Oz

51-56 years old - Moon Bears / Photography

56-62 years old - Chateau in France / Photography

62-63 years old - Kayak New Zealand

63 - Till the End…

I’ve known where I wanted to end up since I was a child. To this day I can picture it perfectly and it hasn’t changed. 40 + acres in New Zealand; some bush, mostly pasture, creeks and hopefully a waterfall. It will have a reasonably big house. A “lived in” house and dearly loved…not one of this ultra modern, “looks like the one next door", stale, characterless boxes with no stories to tell. I really like straw bale houses.

I will have a lake which grows trout.
A parking ground for families in mobile homes.
Workshops for anything anyone wanted to turn their hand to.
I will have wind, water and solar power.
Vegetable gardens for days.
A spa pool.
Huge outdoor bbq and oven.
Horses, livestock, dogs, cats and birds of all description.
I will breed Rosellas for release into the wild.
I will have self contained sleepouts.
Anyone will be welcome.
Everyone will be welcome.
They can come for a day or a year.

40 acres of safe space for anyone who needs it.

How exactly I have and raise a family amongst all of this I don’t know and, unfortunately, teaching in Africa and being a jockey may miss out. I will however squeeze in a beer in Ireland and mutiple orgasms!

Oh shit, I forgot sailing the world. Can I study Architecture and sail at the same time?

Rocking along just nicely. Christchurch trip became 3 weeks, had one week back in Northland followed by Melbourne for 10 days. Spent a few days in Auckland before coming North yesterday. It is serious gumboot territory up here…tall ones. Wonderful. James aside the highlight for me in Christchurch was snow! Freaky cold but a real thrill. I spent an afternoon somewhat mesmerised watching it fall. Melbourne was great. I love Melbourne. My first stop was a hotel overlooking the Yarra River and Southbank. Myself and MrOmom, my company for a few days, both with Nikon cameras (his decidedly bigger than mine) and almost always something going on to look at. Eight hot air balloons floated past on our first morning! A great trip, productive and trains didn’t deliver me to unintended destinations. Christchurch snow below and our view of Southbank the next pic down. This doesn’t do justice. I have a few more of both places for my photoblog.

Plan of attack henceforth. I have a BACKLOG of emails to get up to date with after 6 weeks of intermittent internet and an unhealthy computer…which bit the dust earlier this week. I now have a new one. After nearly 3 years of spending MANY, MANY hours together Ursula Asus is being retired and Maggie, an AcerTM6292, is being welcomed to the family. Ursula will go down in my history as ‘where it all began’. Lots of happy memories and I’m a little sad. Maggie is a delight however, a fraction of the weight, and came with a 22″ LCD for when I’m wanting to see things more clearly. We have travel in mind and she’s perfect for the job! The beginning of a new relationship. More news but i’ll save it for next post.

Speaking of relationships…I had my Tarot cards read in Melbourne. Not something I’ve done before and was a tickle nervous. Apparently my outlook couldn’t be better. Apparently I’m on exactly the right track in every aspect of my life! Who’d have thought? Tarot reader did however threaten a relationship on the horizon…much to my horror. She added a “whether you like it or not” and said “yes, you’ll resist but eventually give in". Apparently we’ll be onto a very good thing.

Also apparently, I have a business partner of sorts on the way. She told me his star sign, I pointed out I don’t normally get along so well with those, she’s assured me this one is lovely. Apparently he’s going to teach me how to turn all my ideas into actual money. EXCELLENT. Presumably I’ll learn how to take advice somewhere between now and then . More than anything she talked about BIG change coming.

“What’s new?” I thought.

“Perhaps the big change is stability?” my Aunty offered.

Surely not. The lady said I was on the right track.