So, I’ve been prompted by several people that my update is overdue.

Yes, there was a meeting over pizza to discuss the matter at hand but was there a clear outcome ?

In real terms no but progress was made and if nothing else there was the chance to catch up with a very special friend who is no more no less than that despite the misguided interpretations it seems some are applying to the nature of the connection between us.

I had no expectations that I would make a dramatic breakthrough with such deeply ingrained issues, the positive part was the robust conversation with a treasured friend who challenges me to the point that we have had several extended periods where we have broken contact completely (never my fault of course )

My personal challenges are exactly that, being deep & strong enough to change the ingrained behaviours and start living my own life for me rather than others yet remaining conscious of the impact I have on the lives of those I care for.

Then a week later a very interesting lunch encounter with people from another web presence talking about life, sex, sensuality, the sex industry & much more. To those who were there it was a special encounter that meant a lot to me and I hope we’ll all keep the faith & meet up as appropriate. For me it reinforced that there are people out there who understand & support what I am just beginning to share (and yes, that some of you struggle with my intense & breathless communication style), on the flip side that there are good people to meet up with and debate the entanglements of life.

My personal life challenges are still with me, had a very “interesting” night tonight where my ability to take a calm and balanced approach was deeply challenged but I emerged positive yet watchful over situations that might yet need intervention.

And the precursor ? Well that’s the flame that good friends and acquaintances light beneath me to take up the challenge & move forward on the basis I have laid down for myself for the second half of my life.